So I've decided to try to start a relationship with this guy I have a crush on. Our mutual friend is going to talk to him tonight to see if he's interested in me. If he is, she'll tell him to email me.
So. . .
Nerves. That's what.
She's going to talk to him in about 10hours. Maybe she'll text me after she talks to him to let me know what happened? Maybe he'll email me after the conversation? Maybe he'll take a week to think things over before giving an answer? Maybe he'll say no, which would be comforting, since it would eliminate all the possibilities? Or maybe he'll say yes, and then I'll have to figure out how to talk to him, how to tell him all this shit that I've been going through, how to re-assure him that'll be ok in the end (when I'm not even confident in that myself). Maybe he'll be wrong for me, but I won't know how to tell him. Maybe he'll be right for me, but I'll push him away.
Oh. The. Possibilities.
SO. NERVE RACKING.
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